(Psalm 139: 1-4 & 15-16)
“O Lord, You have searched me and known me. You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thought afar off. You comprehend my path and my lying down, And are acquainted with all my ways.
For there is not a word on my tongue, But behold, O Lord, You know it altogether. My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skilfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written.”
Every time I read and meditate on this Psalm, the sovereignty of God overwhelms me and I have never been able to read through without tears. It breaks my heart as to how thankless we are and take things for granted despite our breath coming for free.
While writing this I am reminded of one small incident when we (myself & hubby) were trying to video call our one-year old twin grand kids in Bangalore. My husband had stayed back with the kids since his retirement and at the Bangalore airport he just came away without letting them see him leave.
First little Jonathan came on the screen and the moment he saw their grandfather on the screen he reached out with both his hands in sheer delight and excitement as if he got a treasure with his mouth opened wide. Suddenly when he tried to reach out in futility quite a few times, the delight gave way to disappointment and he just looked the other way.
Same was the case with little Luke also. Many times, we tried to call them back but they were expressing anger in their own small way towards their grandfather in having left them.
A sense of deep loss.
This incident left a deep pain in any heart and remained etched in my memory reminding me time and again of the scripture in (Luke 18:15-17)
“Then they also brought infants to Him that He might touch them; but when the disciples saw it, they rebuked them. But Jesus called them to Him and said, “Let the little children come to Me, and do not forbid them; for of such is the kingdom of God. Assuredly, I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God as a little child will by no means enter it.”
Jesus asks children to be brought to him to bless them for the Kingdom of God belongs to such innocent hearts. Our memory is so short lived that we tend to conveniently forget God’s abundant Grace in our life.
We hardly have time to thank the Lord for the countless blessings showered on us during our journey of life. How much grief we cause to the Holy spirit in violation of (Ephesians 4:30) quite oblivious of the Grace upon Grace extended to us by the Spirit of the Lord pleading mercy in groans. (Romans 8:26)
Dear Heavenly Father, With a humble and thankful heart we come before your throne of Grace and ask your special favor to enable us to have a grateful heart. Lord bring our rebellious spirits to subjection to your will in every situation in life. Thank you God for speaking to us through a one-year old infant. Thank you Lord for convicting our heart to pause and think.Lord help us to remember to feed the spiritual nourishment of your Word (Matthew 4:4 ”Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God.”) with every meal to the next generation enabling them to build their house on the rock slowly but steadily in Jesus name we pray.
Amen. Hallelujah!
Glory to God.
Sol Jasmine James